Hold on.

People come and people go. Some people come for a reason and some just come to test your patience. But all of them leave a mark in your life. They teach you valuable lessons that you couldn’t have learnt from anywhere else.

You always need to go through something in order to get something. It’s always been like that. Just don’t lose hope because just like the sun sets, it always never fails to rise up again another day. If not today, someday will be your day.

Stay positive till then.✨

Why?

Why do we always want what we don’t have, be it things or people?

Why are we not able to let go, when it is the only option left?

Why are we waiting for the impossible to happen, when it is clearly impossible?

Love, want, need, desire; make us go out of our way to accomplish things in life.

Sometimes we succeed, get what we want, fulfill our desires, but sometimes we are left alone, hurt, naked and scarred for the rest of our life. We are left with only the memories – both blissful and painful.

Our heart aches to feel the happiness once again, knowing that it will never happen.

Why?….

1.

9th April 2021, 12.22pm

When I look back at all the things I have accomplished in life, they seem meaningless now. From having a classroom full of friends to having no one, I wonder where things went wrong. All I keep thinking was, what did I do wrong to jeopardize all my relationships that I’m left with none now. The world is a really cruel place to live in. The line between being real and being fake has faded so much that no one really knows which is which. Social media has played a big part in blurring that line. People are not what they portray in their nearly perfect social media handle. Most people don’t really care about substance anymore. It’s all just for the likes and comments. People are so cautious of their behavior online that they don’t realize how toxic it turns out to be for others. I am not saying everybody is that way but majority of social media is purely toxic and unhealthy.

I started writing this or rather ranting here, a year ago and stopped writing at all after some time. I fell into the endless pit of self-loathing and lost all motivation to do anything at all!

I miss my best friend. It has been two years since he stopped talking to me and it hurts just the same as it did two years ago when he left me. There is this void inside me that’s probably turning into a black hole and is trying to suck my life out of me. I don’t understand why it had to be this way, why things ended the way they ended, why is it so hard for me to let go and move on when he can. I can’t say I haven’t been able to trust others but I am just scared if things will repeat itself and I would end up getting hurt again, only the next time it would be much worse than now. I mean, I don’t want to feel miserable all the time. I want things to change, improve but I don’t know how that’s going to happen.

The beginning.

Hey there! I’m new to wordpress and I’m still getting a hang of it. The world is going through a lot right now and all of us are under quarantine. Some of us are home with our people and some of us are alone under lockdown.

Personally, this has been a very stressful time and I didn’t know how to cope with it. Binge watching shows really messed up my head and that’s when I decided to write. I’m not that passionate about writing but I love reading books. But I have so many things to say so I thought why not start blogging? Well, here I am!